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I started this project at the beginning of the year with the intention of creating an album of thirty, one-minute long songs. It’s funny because I thought writing really short songs would be so much easier, but it actually turned out to be quite difficult. I soon realized that it’s almost impossible to say what I want to say in such a short amount of time.
The whole process was something entirely new for me, and almost therapeutic in a way. I took my time and didn’t force anything. I tried different things from a musical perspective—some new and some old. And for the first time, I’ve held nothing back lyrically. In the past, I’ve always been hesitant to say this or that… but not this time. I’m going to go back to something that Jonatha Brooke said that I’ve quoted before: “Music—always the truest and most devastating way to say things.” I couldn’t agree more, which is why I’m adopting this as mantra from here on out.
As with every project, this one has left me emotionally drained and the well has certainly run dry for now. So you probably won’t be hearing from me for a little while. But for now, you can download it for FREE!!! And if you’d like a copy of the CD when it drops, just let me know and I’ll get one to you for FREE, as well.
So if you have the chance, I hope you’ll give it a listen. I hope you enjoy it. I hope you share it with others. And, as always, thanks for your support!!!
i just wanted to be your love,
but being good isn’t good enough.
and when push finally came to shove,
i couldn’t be brave enough.
i just wanted to taste your lust,
but my lips are not bold enough
to keep you from turning in disgust.
i should’ve known, your eyes told enough.
and i know we won’t be the same as we grow older.
and i will be the one they blame when this is over.
i just wanted to feel your touch,
but my body isn’t cool enough.
and now you’re proving to be too much
because my heart cannot trust enough.
i’m so sad
’cause the older i get,
the more i regret
the times we had.
it’s been too long
that i’ve been trying to hide it,
but now it’s too hard to fight it
’cause i’m scared i’m wrong.
where to start–
the night we first met,
or the mistakes we forget
that tore us apart?
i’m sorry if i let you down…
i know i’m not appealing,
and you can’t help the feeling
that you don’t want me around.
but change your mind
and you will find
that i’m so into you…
i’ll never find the words to say.
i’ll just stare at you and be betrayed
by my own broken heart
’cause we’re still worlds apart.
why do we have to live this way?
all your wishes, all your wants
are all i want to give.
but every time i feel you near
i know i’ll only be a friend.
you’ve lied too many times before.
you keep your secrets behind doors.
it feels like a heart attack
’cause you can’t take it back.
but you’re still the one i’m searching for.
all my wishes, all my wants
are what you won’t believe.
and every time you leave me here
i know i’ll only be afraid.
say that it’s over now and i won’t fight.
but how can it be that we’ve been wrong
all this time when it feels so right?
if there’s only one thing you should know,
i won’t lie.
but i can’t remember all the things
that we may have said tonight.
how long will i be alone?
’cause i won’t ever be enough.
but i know i would do anything to be yours.
(i’ll be afraid, i can’t escape.
my heart will break every time i see your face.)
“This Trip” by Brittle Stars
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can you feel it now?
there’s something in the air tonight
that says we’ll be alright
’cause i’ve been waiting
for this moment to arrive
and make me feel alive.
take my hand,
i’ll show you everything
if i could be anything to you.
can you see it now?
there’s a fire inside my heart
and you made it spark.
but i’m still waiting
for your lips to come around
and just let me down.
when it feels like we have made a start
i’ll be waiting for you to break my heart
it won’t be long before you’re gone
and i’ll admit that i was wrong
and it tears my world apart
hold your head up high
and be the girl you’ve thought of
and i’ll close my eyes
’cause i can’t be the one you love
when it feels like you could use a change
i’ll be waiting for you to rearrange
the stars at night across the sky
so i can wish to be the guy
that you have been dreaming of
keep your smile on wide
and be the one that i adore
i’ll open up my eyes
and see that there was nothing more
every breath i take whispers your name
every move i make is part of your game
’cause i need your love… your love
every step i take leads to your door
every wish i make leaves me wanting more
’cause i need your love… your love